i really envy people who can just sit down, focus and study/ get assessments done.
*coughashleycough* 

like i have the knowledge in my head that i should be doing something early, pace myself out, dedicate enough time to it. to get good results is hard work, everyone knows that. and you know, hsc and all, i think it would be a good idea to get good results, no? but when it comes down to the nitty gritty, about 7 times out of 10 (? major guessitamate) i end up procrastinating, start procrastinating, leave it for later.
procrastinating

its a mistake i never seem to correct. i know my mistake, i know what i should do to avoid it... but time and time again i leave most things to the last moment, do it when the pressures on =/

*sigh*

hence i really envy people who can just focus and straight away just do it.(ie, the majority of my grade)

no msn, no youtube, no cleaning your room, no eating, no listening to music, no organising crap

just doing it.

on a positive note, my procrastination is reducing these days, i guess my craptacular results currently are motivating me in a sense to study study study study. well at least try to. im proud to say ive actually doen a practice essay for the english assessment coming up :D

arghhhhh stress to do well sucksss. esp since i have to make up for bad results from earlier on.

hopefully my procrastination will be a bare minimum very very soon. cause trials are coming up T^T. and VA is due right before that. fml

 

lets get our study on guys.
hsc really should go and craw into a dark hole and die a painful death.

man, oh man there is a couple of people, well one person in particular in my life that are rubbing up against me the wrong way. like in general everything would be cool with them, but then suddenly they do something, say something, view something or react to something in a way that is just plain selfish, immature or stupid. usually a combination of those three.

theres one girl in particular whos been bugging me the most.

selfish
immature
stupid

thats her spot on.

i just want to slap her across the face and scream fuck you loud and clear, then tell her all the shit ive put up with. oh man, i just want to get angry at her, just to release it all.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

granted, obviously im not the greatest person ever *rolls eyes* and ive been annoying on occasions for various reasons. and of course everyone has their bad moments. but you can only put up witn so much. this girl, she just cannot comprehend, oh i dont know, the world might not actually revolve around her.

to you who is reading this, i probably sound like some immature angsty teenager having a bitch about something that im blowing way out of proportion. i guess in some aspects i am.
seriously though, this person makes my life just that tiny bit more worse - and im holding out.

im learning to be more patient through this girl.
im learning about perspective through this girl.

the good with the bad huh? the bright side to this.
at least it wont last for too much longer.
hopefully.


i still believe she deserves a good slap across her face.


violence doesnt solve anything kids :)
have a good week - long weekend whoot whoot :D

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel off the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Oh...I do love you

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this, with anyone but you
We do it all the time, blowing out my mind

You've got this look I can't describe
You make me feel like I'm alive
When everything else is au fait
Without a doubt you're on my side
Heaven has been away too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh...your love

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this, with anyone but you
We do it all the time, blowing out my mind

I have come to understand, the way it is
It's not a secret anymore
'Cause we've been through that before
From tonight I know that you're the only one
I've been confused and in the dark
Now I understand
Yeah, yeah

I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this, with anyone but you
I wonder why it is, I won't let my guard down
For anyone but you
We do it all the time, blowing out my mind

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel off the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands

---

one of the few songs that works the best with her voice and just a guitar (well i think so anyway)

ive been listening to a lot of old songs recently - is it just me, or are most of the songs recently released just not that great? as in there's no one song, no new albums that hits me *bam* and makes me wat to listen to it on repeat for the next week. well, as an afterthought i guess chiddy bang iss pretty good :)

i just want to listen to a good new song.
is that too much to ask?

might me just me actually, just lovin old songs right now, like the one above <3




search up lydia paek on youtube
omg, such a good singer




"in my opinion" sounds really pretentious
or is it just me?